Yes, I finally said it.
100% completely true.
Dreaded, avoided words...
'I..... I love you! '

Words finally spoken.
I do not repent!
What I didn't say was
another hidden intent.

Spoken like a drunkard
of constant intoxication.
Spoken like a drug addict
in need of detoxification.

Admitting in that desperate
hope for some needed sleep
Revealing love.. in attempt
to purge my feelings deep

But purging you was just
totally impossible for me.
Maybe not my real plan
- just eliminate jealousy.

Crazy as it seems I was
also happy for you.
Hoped you finally
found your love true.

I was and am your friend
and intend to always be.
Wish you joy and happiness...
even if it is to be without me.

Zen Bojczuk

http://www.poemhunter.com/poem/dreaded-words/