I dreamt of this ~/- If I lost my memory! Would I enjoy seeing my Life? ~ I got my (crazy) wish but I forgot it... (An Alien Orthodox Philosophy) -- Alcohol Experiment

Published on Nov 11, 2012 Filmed on Sept 16, 2012 now republished on April 26, 2017

I got my (crazy) wish but I forgot it (An Alien Orthodox Philosophy) -- Alcohol Experiment

This is a philosophical/psychological (crazy) mind experiment I wished to do on my self from 2004.... In 2004, I was depressed, mentally, creating an alter

ego to get me off my ass and change my mind loving everything...

During this year of 2004, I thought, "If I lost my memory, getting amnesia, watching my life/stuff/videos, would I want that life, (?) Wanting all those

Memories/Remembering those things (back) or chose to continue to forget all of this? ~ Knowing my decision! -- To watch and have/absorbed these memories!

Now, 2012, I have the same phantasm/fantasy in a new psychological way. I can drink and become blackout drunk, record a great fantasy/reality, and watch it

later, sober... etc,

This is it! (My Experiment) September 16th, 2012. This year I wish to be in a hot tub, drunk, feel the physical sensation, vibrations, and listen to this

song... (Rammstein - Ich Will) That is "IT." Being here...

I DO NOT REMEMBER DOING THIS ~ knowing prior, I would... (My 2004 dream/experiment of having amnesia) and watching my one/own Life!

I, in the past, was consciously aware I would make this video, do this, forget I did it, accidentally find it, and watch it later, with no memory, and share

This very interesting philosophy/experiment/psychology/Alien Orthodox...

I found something on November 10th 2012, am watching something I knew I would do, recorded on September 16th 2012 but can't remember, and recording this!